I’m still ruminating on this, and I’ve never been one for haphazard declarations of intent, but I do believe in intentionality…
2015 was a very full year. My kids turned 1, 3, and 5. Mr. Pax started a new job… in a new city. We moved to join him after a few months. My oldest started kindergarten. We started life over: new home, new schools, new church, new city, new friends. It’s been good, but it’s been very full.
Maybe a bit too full.
So I’d like to start this year off with a word. Before I do, though, I have a confession: I have a tendency (ok, maybe more like a compulsion) to stay busy. Very busy. In fact (and here’s where my confession gets ugly), I think I perceive not being busy as being self-indulgent. And in reality, I think it’s the opposite.
Which brings me to my word for the year: margin.
I actually first heard a friend at Bible study use this word a few months ago, and (again – the ugliness) I think I very much misunderstood her at first. My initial thought was something like, “isn’t it a little selfish to need so much time for yourself?” (Don’t hate me friends, I’m just being transparent here…) But as the year has proceeded, I am completely eating my words.
Let me clarify, I don’t want more “me time.” Or more pedicures. Or more naps. (Actually, all those things sound lovely…) What I mean by margin is more room in my schedule for those moments.
You know the ones…
-three extra minutes to answer my children’s questions.
-time to ask the grocery store clerk how her day has been.
-twenty minutes to catch up with a friend on the phone.
-half an hour to study my Bible and pray.
-fifteen minutes to hear how my husband’s day went.
-room to breathe.
-and snuggle with my kids.
-and connect with my husband.
-and create out of inspiration rather than need.
So margin. That’s it. What this will look like in reality, I’m not sure… but I’m trying to take the time to figure that out.
In the meantime, I hope you and yours have a beautiful New Year.
PS I want to give credit to my sweet friend Liz for inspiration for the accompanying photos to today’s thoughts.